i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any–lifted from the no
of all nothing–human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

e.e. cummings

Sometimes I want to scream because I want so badly to be able to escape from the culture we’re confined in. Everything’s so fast-paced and centered around stuff. Simplicity’s really not so bad. I feel like I miss out on a whole lot.

I want to spend an uncapped amount of time with somebody, anybody really, just driving. No set destination. No schedule to keep. No computer. Enough money to be comfortable, not luxurious. Just time and plenty of it. Reflecting on life, God, people, love, the Church– there’s a whole lot I don’t understand but I’m always distracted here.

[soon i hope]

If my brain keeps going at this rate, it’s gonna be burned out by mid-summer.

I’ve gotten to hang out with some good friends this last week.

Sometimes I feel disconnected from the world down here in Ovilla.

I’m considering growing out my hair until after the fall.

I got my plane ticket to Chicago and I’m pretty excited.

I miss Europe though.

(Is September here yet?)